Turned My World

'You turned my whole world around....'
That's the title of a fmouse r and b song. The Moments and Barry White recorded it. I'm just doing a personal reflection of those very words....

Since I've had the pleasure to meditate daily on purpose; it certainly has made my world way better than previously. I first started with 'practicing the presence of god' while I was still in church. It was really cool however, it became increasingly straining on my world at that time. The more transmissions I received (and I had started doing spoken word at that time as well), the more things became a bit complicated. I would be a bit confused. I would say the scriptures but I found that my vision of things were actually a bit skewed. I loved and enjoyed those I was in close contact with and shared special association with. It was just that in my personal growth; I just didn't know what I thought I knew.
I am constantly challenging myself. I am constantly trying to avoid things but ehn I get to a point that I just give in and challenge, challenge and do it.One may want to call me brave but i was just as scared as the next person.
I realized after moving to California, giving birth, leaving/discarding the toxic relationship, that everything I engaged in was out of fear.
That revelation turned my world.....around.

Maturation and Balance

I've been taking it easy nowadays. I've learned (finally) to slow it all down and not make as much of a fuss or just to stop being plain old difficult for no reason at all! (Gasp!! Admittance???!!1)
Yes, I'm admitting that I have made life very difficult for no reason. I've harbored things within secretly that didn't need to be kept. I've created circumstances that did not do me or my household any good. 
In the midst of all of that; I also created favorable circumstances. There's always two sides to the coin however; sometimes we only become fixated on the one side that's shown the most. When you only look at one side; you become more aquainted with the shapes and the engagement without considering the possibilities of change. That side is that side and has always been that side and will always be that side as far as you are concerned. 
Eh, I know it seems as if I'm rambling....
Hopefully, you get the point. 
Expect that there may be another side to get acquainted with. Sometimes, it's forced. Just know... it's there. 
Balance is no matter how it feels.

BRUJAS - PRINCESS NOKIA

So.... As this vid began; it touched my solar plex....little tinks...a few squeezes....I may not be entirely into what she is saying; but I can get w/it!

The 'I don't need a man' moments...

Just so it is known amongst some of the knowledge brothers out here; 'I don't need a man' comes from the disappointment of not having a man around. The disappointment of broken promises, limbs, hearts, etc. No one is coming out of the womb with the power fist saying; 'I don't need a man'. It is obvious how nature is set up that in order to procreate and to a stone cold lesbian's disgust, you are needed in some capacity.
The 'I dont need a man' comes from the consternation and hurt of being denied the proper respect. It's funny that you come out of us - our bodies- and somewhere along the line, you find it convenient to disrespect us. Even in human nature needs....
When you are not there, the mother has to step up and ease the pain. The pain of lies spoken. The pain of some of you being there and somewhere along the lines bruises and broken limbs appear from your fists of fury. How about the sexual touching of your seed? (o yes, this happens even amongst knowledge brothers). If you touch the boy, you confuse him. You awaken things prematurely and then confuse him w/the whole 'be a man' thing...smh...You touch the girl you terrify her. You have shattered her whole picture of what a man is. It is unlawful. Not just unlawful in society at large but unlawful in the natural sense of family. Thankfully, this is not going on in every village (house) but the percentage is not as low as one may think. Lets just stick to these few things. The mother then has the task of either stepping up or stepping out; meaning that she can acknowledge and cancel the whole family order or she can pretend it doesn't exist to keep the family order. Decisions, decisions....The children are watching. Drugs are abused to dull the pain of the current reality one is involved in. Unfortunately, once all of the substance abuse is over (hopefully, because many die in it) there is still the issue of dealing w/why one tried to escape in the first place.
'I dont need a man' does normally gets qualified w/other things behind it....

New Calendar Year

It has been some time since I've posted... Keeping up w/living and sharing can be something!!! The previous year saw me performing at various places freely and with my guitar---no doubt!!! I'm uber grateful as usual and very much excited.

This year unlike last

is gathering steam to pass

old hinderances 

Back to sharing what's private - out loud.

Let's see what schedule I can maintain this year!!!