It's Highly time to remove the unnecessity to hoard people and things
What I have been personally observing with MySelf is, 'where is the hurt/pain?'
When I'm driving; where is this anger from? Where is the impatience? Why is....?
Is it because it's not in my control? It's not in my control for folk to not be in my way
Some time ago; I reacted to someone's rage. I wanted to control myself and I maintained enough w/o the name-calling. If anything; I encouraged her to get another job. I still couldn't see where I was wrong initially. I do know that sometimes my quick dings may come off short. Definitely not intended and I do make attempt to offer apologies if I catch it quickly. However, the situation accelerated rather immediate and my reaction in it was not very pretty. I know it happens. I know that we are all dealing with life and reality. I just like to be more accountable and my daughter did bear witness and that honestly was the only thing I did not like.
That will be what I'll call one to grow on... le sigh

A Deeper Understanding

'...Now it ain't easy but I don't need no help
I've got a strong will to survive
I've got a deeper love, deeper love
Deeper love inside and I call it....'  Deeper Love recorded by Aretha Franklin

I encourage us all to dig deep

Dig deep w/your eyes closed in your times of privacy.

Privacy is not just sitting w/incense and candles chanting Om/Aum

Privacy is blocking out people at the party

and breathing. Nodding yes to the agreement of YourSelf.

 No one has the jurisdiction to tell you how improper it is. Sometimes it's a brief deep breath while in the midst of conversation. 

The only way someone's word on your action in this is if  you give that permission. Giving them that permission is giving them the power of this very personal thing of you. 

I know this sounds not so good; even if  you were held up in almost the last moments of your lifetime; it is your personal decision to breathe. This standing in your face. Obviously, if caught off guard... one could hope that  you were able in the moment of the unknown...

Let's be mindful in this time of our lives. Find out where it hurts and breathe to heal. Allow the silence - no matter how long or brief to speak. 

Silence does speak volumes..... Don't be afraid. Be vulnerable w/YourSelf. Remember to tell YourSelf . I love You.

as always, these words are intended in love and not hurt. no offense meant.

It Was Said...

It was said 
you weren't going to make it
I'm glad that you didn't listen to them.
I'm glad that you decided to smile big and hearty.
Even through the heartbreaks and aches.

Celebrate Your Incarnation

Happy B'earthday to me

My incarnation that's daily seen

Celebration 

Life lessons

Joyful excitement

in my existing

not always happy feelings

choices can be grilling

still I'm grateful for my living

and I'm dancing....for me

Living Out as You Are

Live out as you are
No one can live you better than you
Live out as you are
You're the only truth you can be
Live out as you are
It's better than you though it would be
Living out as you are
only hurts those who are not fully acquainted with
themselves
 You live
Live on
Live as you

Can't Take...Not Giving

There is nothing anyone can take from you unless you give it. Especially what is inside. 
I've had to come to the realizations that I am not a victim. I may not be a stone clad Christian but I am still that conqueror because what is in me is mightier than what is outside of me in visual projection.

I am listening to Phyllis Hyman jam a gem, ' Beautiful Man of Mine' and it reminded me to share just a little more of me... Who knows what the future holds? Only a select few at limited times...Enjoy the vid!! 

NITTY SCOTT FEAT. ZAP MAMA - "LA DIASPORA"

I am so for such great cinematography!!! The song is nice and the visions are even more lovelier. Let us continue to celebrate each and everyday.... Us!
In this time and season; we have so much to be grateful for and so much to work out in this earthly existence. We are able to do it w/whatever facial expression we choose - I just personally choose to smile a while.....

Slipping Into Darkness with All Day Music

Slipping into Darkness would be one of the things that would happen as you go deeper within....
I'm not talking about negativity and shame. I'm talking about that point you'll get while you're breathing steadily w/closed eyes. Be not afraid. 
Yes, I'm a fan of the song recorded by War. The music jammed and is hypnotic to bones. Nothing wrong w/rocking and swaying and doing a small two-step while in mid-stride. Let them talk. 
You've got it! You've that something inexplicable but positive and infectious.
Inside of you is musical melodies that play through the day. Enjoy the melodies and enjoy life. Nothing in the paradigm may be perfect you are in this space and time. Be encouraged w/in!

Hard to Get

Rick James recorded a song called 'Hard To Get'....
Of course, it ran the regular kinky funk beat and lyrics. 
I have found in the course of my spiritual life that the All Encompassing can be hard to get. Sometimes when things are revealed, they are Hard To Get. 
Ask yourself; what is holding you back from getting it???
Sometimes it takes time to 'get it'.
Allow yourself time....
You really can afford it.....

Turned My World

'You turned my whole world around....'
That's the title of a fmouse r and b song. The Moments and Barry White recorded it. I'm just doing a personal reflection of those very words....

Since I've had the pleasure to meditate daily on purpose; it certainly has made my world way better than previously. I first started with 'practicing the presence of god' while I was still in church. It was really cool however, it became increasingly straining on my world at that time. The more transmissions I received (and I had started doing spoken word at that time as well), the more things became a bit complicated. I would be a bit confused. I would say the scriptures but I found that my vision of things were actually a bit skewed. I loved and enjoyed those I was in close contact with and shared special association with. It was just that in my personal growth; I just didn't know what I thought I knew.
I am constantly challenging myself. I am constantly trying to avoid things but ehn I get to a point that I just give in and challenge, challenge and do it.One may want to call me brave but i was just as scared as the next person.
I realized after moving to California, giving birth, leaving/discarding the toxic relationship, that everything I engaged in was out of fear.
That revelation turned my world.....around.

Maturation and Balance

I've been taking it easy nowadays. I've learned (finally) to slow it all down and not make as much of a fuss or just to stop being plain old difficult for no reason at all! (Gasp!! Admittance???!!1)
Yes, I'm admitting that I have made life very difficult for no reason. I've harbored things within secretly that didn't need to be kept. I've created circumstances that did not do me or my household any good. 
In the midst of all of that; I also created favorable circumstances. There's always two sides to the coin however; sometimes we only become fixated on the one side that's shown the most. When you only look at one side; you become more aquainted with the shapes and the engagement without considering the possibilities of change. That side is that side and has always been that side and will always be that side as far as you are concerned. 
Eh, I know it seems as if I'm rambling....
Hopefully, you get the point. 
Expect that there may be another side to get acquainted with. Sometimes, it's forced. Just know... it's there. 
Balance is no matter how it feels.

BRUJAS - PRINCESS NOKIA

So.... As this vid began; it touched my solar plex....little tinks...a few squeezes....I may not be entirely into what she is saying; but I can get w/it!

The 'I don't need a man' moments...

Just so it is known amongst some of the knowledge brothers out here; 'I don't need a man' comes from the disappointment of not having a man around. The disappointment of broken promises, limbs, hearts, etc. No one is coming out of the womb with the power fist saying; 'I don't need a man'. It is obvious how nature is set up that in order to procreate and to a stone cold lesbian's disgust, you are needed in some capacity.
The 'I dont need a man' comes from the consternation and hurt of being denied the proper respect. It's funny that you come out of us - our bodies- and somewhere along the line, you find it convenient to disrespect us. Even in human nature needs....
When you are not there, the mother has to step up and ease the pain. The pain of lies spoken. The pain of some of you being there and somewhere along the lines bruises and broken limbs appear from your fists of fury. How about the sexual touching of your seed? (o yes, this happens even amongst knowledge brothers). If you touch the boy, you confuse him. You awaken things prematurely and then confuse him w/the whole 'be a man' thing...smh...You touch the girl you terrify her. You have shattered her whole picture of what a man is. It is unlawful. Not just unlawful in society at large but unlawful in the natural sense of family. Thankfully, this is not going on in every village (house) but the percentage is not as low as one may think. Lets just stick to these few things. The mother then has the task of either stepping up or stepping out; meaning that she can acknowledge and cancel the whole family order or she can pretend it doesn't exist to keep the family order. Decisions, decisions....The children are watching. Drugs are abused to dull the pain of the current reality one is involved in. Unfortunately, once all of the substance abuse is over (hopefully, because many die in it) there is still the issue of dealing w/why one tried to escape in the first place.
'I dont need a man' does normally gets qualified w/other things behind it....

New Calendar Year

It has been some time since I've posted... Keeping up w/living and sharing can be something!!! The previous year saw me performing at various places freely and with my guitar---no doubt!!! I'm uber grateful as usual and very much excited.

This year unlike last

is gathering steam to pass

old hinderances 

Back to sharing what's private - out loud.

Let's see what schedule I can maintain this year!!!