Television's Food for thought.

I've been thinking about blogging about lessons on the screen. We shall see. I like to see not only physical parallels but even the metaphysical dealings as well.

All in the way of dealing w/your inner silence speaking.

THE QUIET LIFE SPEAKING LOUD

Watching a much television and movies on the whatever time (down or up) paying attention to life does help. I'm currently taking a class in martial arts- a very real white belt (novice). What I don't always get in the technique physically, I pay attention to the inner silence nudging me. In just the basics, I see where I've been crapping in life.

        Inner Silence Speaks like so- in your quiet moments while life is still yet going on. Speaking happens while you’re reading, walking, talking, etc. As I’ve grown in life, I acknowledge- although still a full advocate- that sitting and meditating is a wonderful thing to do. I also acknowledge that meditating is not just sitting and doing nothing though. What I liked about reading Ra Un Nefer Amen’s Tree of Life Meditation (TOLM) book years ago, it really helped my overactive brain process something that’s been happening to me since I can remember this current existence. Concentration. In my concentration, I hear and as time goes by you learn to distinct the voices speaking. This is not crazy. We all have an inner voice. We sometimes just need to spend a little extra time w/it.
        Me being an only child has given me plenty of time to be alone. That didn’t stop me from being hardheaded or anything. When I was a child, I ignored the voice a lot because I didn’t know or understand exactly what was happening. I didn’t have anyone to really talk to that I could trust. It seemed as if everyone I trusted backstabbed me in some way. Even those that you are told you are to trust. As a child, I wished I really had someone to talk to and to share myself with. This was beyond what I had going on superficially, i.e. my artistic happenings. I was lonely as a child.

Now that I have my own child, I do my best to keep the lines of communication open w/in reason. I say w/in reason because I can’t share everything w/my child. But I allow my child to share her feelings w/me. It’s important to me for me to know how she feels even if she feels as if she’s going to get in trouble. In love but neutrality, I listen and counsel accordingly.

        Well, now I’m in my thirties. I sometimes feel like I’m wasting life because there has been so much that I want to do w/it and lots of those dreams seem quite deferred. This is when I have to consult inwardly. It’s amazing how the things you do in your childhood that if you pay attention- it actually becomes more of a help in your adulthood.